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me and my boyfriendddd are at starbucks writing mean notes to each other about the other people.  i can't help it, they're the ones in here talking about the bible and god and all that like it's real.  i'm mostly worried he's going to lose it and start yelling at them or say something too loud and they'll get mad at us and we'll have to leave.  he can be unpredictable.  but we're outnumbered here, who knows what the texans will do when their precious jesus is slandered.  learn real history, dudes, there have been so many jesus myths.  SIGH.

the first weekend at this faire was okay.  we did really well on saturday and then on sunday not so great.  again, texas, jesus, church, sunday, etc.  i am helping to sell these things called Grichels.  they're grumpy looking faces made out of wrinkled leather.  some of them have realistic human eyes and some have animal eyes.  they're pretty cool and they have quite a following.  they're easy to sell because they sell themselves.  it's fun working there because one of the guys i work with at the coffee shop got me the job and he really believes in me and how awesome i am...i'm glad because sometimes i'm not sure that i'm all that great at selling.  it's fun though.  the days go by fast.  on sunday a woman came in and her card declined and it was dramatic because her ex-husband had closed down her account without telling her!  and he was her ex of one week and he was her ex because she found photos of him doing it with another man on his phone.  !!!!!!  they were married 28 years and had kids and grandkids!!!!  i felt sorry for her and also mad at her husband because he obviously was too afraid or conditioned (BY TEXAS AND THEIR MISGUIDED JESUSY WAYS) that being gay is wrong.  and that's what is actually wrong.  what's a bigger sin, being gay or living a lie for your entire life and wasting it and wasting someone else's life for 28 years and making a lot of other people's lives a lie as well?  this is what's wrong with people in america.  people don't think they're allowed to be who they are because of what they think the bible means, a book written and rewritten and re-re-written hundreds of years ago by people who lived hundreds of years ago.

another thing that's wrong with america is that i can lay in bed in excrutiating pain in the middle of the night, worrying that it might get so bad that i'll have to go to the ER and i can't afford to be in pain or hurt, willing myself to get better because i can't go to the hospital or to the doctor.  that years ago when i sliced open my leg i considered having my friend stitch it up because i couldn't afford to go to the hospital.  that everybody doesn't feel this way, that i should be allowed to get sick and then be able to go to the hospital without worrying about going broke or my parents going broke, is baffling to me.  but i'm not going to go into a huge diatribe about THAT...  as long as there's ibuprofen and thermacare i should be fine but it's not fun waking up in the middle of the night not being able to stretch out because my side and shoulder were both so cramped up, i could literally only lay curled up on my side like a bug.  how does that even happen!?

the funniest thing at the end of the night on faire days is when i and the boy get home we're both so sore and tired, quite the pair.  i don't see how anybody can go out and get drunk after working so hard on their feet for so long.  i just need better shoes or more pairs so i can switch in and out of them during the day, apparently this is the way to make your feet not hurt so much.

well, this has gotten way longer than i thought it would be.  i guess i'll stop.